...100 days...

It's been 100 days since u've gone..
Many tears and anguish since then...
Miss you so much, my brother..
Hope u have a place there...the best place, the greatest, better than here..
I'm sorry i haven't had the chance to look after Carissa, and mbak Ipung..tried to call everytime i had the chance though
I really wish they could stay here, in Malang
Carissa is a copy of you..seeing her, just like seeing you..
The curly hair, that big eyes..
Oh Thank God for giving her as your legacy...

Wish you well there..we'll always pray for you bro, everyday.. everytime...
Love u always...

..untitled..

Felt so lost..so confused..so tired and hopeless..
Have u ever felt like u've done everything u can, but still it's been considered not enough..?
Have u ever felt like hoping, dreaming..and one day u wake-up with the reality that's far beyond your dream..?
Sometimes i get tired,of walking..hoping..dreaming..having faith that i would make it someday..
But i can't give up, i won't give up !!
Dream and hope kept us alive..and only faith could give us the strength to reach it..
Pray to God, and it shall be given to you..

..what's happening to me..

Felt so lost...so empty..
Don't know how to hang on..don't know how i can stand up again..
I've lost my spirit.. I've been walking without knowing where to go..what to do..
This is so hard...
Instead of gaining 10 pounds (as i expected), I probably lost 10 pounds of my weight now..
And my health are beginning to decrease rapidly..
Please God..help me..

..workaholic..?

Seumur-umur, baru kali ni pulang kantor jam 2 pagi..bikin report, fixing things that wasn't even my fault at all..and now i have to go back to the office cause they need me again..holyfield..!!!

..untitled..

Sad..broken..falling into pieces..
I know things will never be the same again..
From the first time u put that song as ur ringtone, i know things will change..
It's like a time-bomb..i knew it coming, but i'm never ready..i'll need time to recover, to get it over with..

..getting by..

New desk..new tasks..new responsibilities..
I've learned it, nothing new actually..but still, i had difficulties of doing it now, cause i'm alone..i have no partner in handling those never ending task..
Still need some time to adapt with this new duty, hope i can handle it soon..so help me God..

311 - Love Song

I love this song..
Everytime i heard this song, my heart jumps a bit.. Got carried by the rhythm, the lyrics..
It always reminds me of someone who meant so much for me..i miss him..don't know if he felt it too..